steady as she goes

Nobody is going to take care of you but you. So get happy. This is good advice from my favorite blog http://karensporch.blogspot.com/. People, i mean it seems everyone, will stomp on you relentlessly. This i get, I've done it to others, really important others who I loved. Maybe it's a young and dumb thing..a "nobody likes you when you're 23" thing. I don't know, but I'm sorry. IM SORRY KARMA ill try to stop using. using others its easy to do and addictive. sad lonely selfish bored. ive lost depth in my own manipulation. I'm trying to come back to innocent. possible? I can only try to do better and apologize constantly for being flaky and inconsistant with my feelings.

dangerous territory

"Love is an irresistible desire to be irresistibly desired." -- Robert Frost

one too many cracks

"When life gives you lemons, just say, 'fuck the lemons,' and bail."

I'm not sure life has ever really given me lemons until recently at least not ones as sour as of late. And I've come to truly appreciate the afore mentioned quotation. I've come to appreciate and understand it quite well.

Above is a vague but accurate video illustration that made me smile today and contemplate my situations. I'd follow suit if given the chance.

To be used is a terrible thing. To be the user is a worse thing. -me (but im sure its been said before)

Friday

Today I want to laugh..until my belly aches.

Build me up >:/

Just realized "build me up buttercup" is an intensely emotional lyrical masterpiece that mirrors real-life relational bull poo to perfection.

Why do you build me up Buttercup baby just to let me down And mess me around

And then worst of all You never call baby When you say you will

But I love you still

I need you More than anyone darlin' You know that I have from the start

So build me up Buttercup Don't break my heart

I'll be over at ten You tell me time and again But you're late I wait around and then

I went to the door I can't take any more It's not you You let me down again

Baby Baby Try to find a little time And I'll make you happy

I'll be home I'll be beside the phone Waiting for you.

Why do you build me up....

To you I'm a toy But I could be the boy You adore If you'd just let me know

Although you're untrue I'm attracted to you All the more

Why do I need you so

Baby Baby.....ooh ooh ooh Why do build me up .....

Heidi Klum (halloween maniac)

I think she's brilliantly consistent with the fangs though.

why cant we get hotter as we get older? guess who

diane keaton and woody allen, sean connery, bob dylan, stevie nicks, rod stewart