steady as she goes

Nobody is going to take care of you but you. So get happy. This is good advice from my favorite blog http://karensporch.blogspot.com/. People, i mean it seems everyone, will stomp on you relentlessly. This i get, I've done it to others, really important others who I loved. Maybe it's a young and dumb thing..a "nobody likes you when you're 23" thing. I don't know, but I'm sorry. IM SORRY KARMA ill try to stop using. using others its easy to do and addictive. sad lonely selfish bored. ive lost depth in my own manipulation. I'm trying to come back to innocent. possible? I can only try to do better and apologize constantly for being flaky and inconsistant with my feelings.